I recent, as in the past couple days, decided to get into FinDom, Financial Domination. It is a fascinating fetish….

But anyway, 

       TODAY I GOT MY FIRST TRIBUTE!! :D

Only $54, but it was still a lot of fun. It was all he had in his PayPal account. 

Hopefully this Irish slave can tribute more over the next few months. He is a very polite slave. 

And while I know I’m good at sex, I feel nervous when I am talking with my boyfriend. His past sexual partners just seem to be mediocre, so I don’t understand why I get jealous of his one night stands. Maybe because I find his sex partners to have been stupid choices. I am not happy with all of mine, but I never slept with someone just because they couldn’t get back home that night, to a sober home. -.-‘ 

There is just so much I haven’t gotten over with Josh’s sex life. 

Telling me I have a small penis. Which I know isn’t true, but it still pisses me off. 

Telling me about how he likes giant dicks bc it automatically feels better. 

Lying to me about the best sex he’s ever had. They never had sex.

Throwing away an Espeon pillow I made him and then saying he lost it.

His choice of sexual partners. 

I mean, we are great together except talking about sex. I compare myself to anyone he slept with or anyone he finds attractive. 

It’s frustrating. He’s told me I’m the best he’s ever had, and I generally believe him, but for some reason there is this doubt in the back of my mind that he would just say that to anyone he would ever date. 

I want to get over this stupid comparison on my end. I don’t know why I do it. 

I don’t even know if this post makes sense. 

I just really fucking need to get it out. 

…and my dad isn’t answering me on when we’re going to get food.